severe nostalgia...

please note that i am drunk and sentimental as i write this, and also that my roomates have yet to clean the kitchen...

the other day i was in a hotel room in Weatherford, TX for work. i was up at 5am, waiting for the clock to turn to 7:00 so i could leave the hotel, get the wellsite and work. the only thing worth watching on tv at that particular time was an old re-run of Saved By The Bell . If you grew up in the 80's/90's, you can probably sing the opening song for the show. i flipped channels and there was the famous opening song along with the 80's graphics. probably because i was still only half concious, the instant i heard and saw that opening to the show, a wave of nostalgia hit me like Ali. in half a second, my mind flew through 4 years of high school... conversations, relationships, events, music i had played, music i had heard, things seen, things done, and things heard about.

after this i had never been more awake in my life. it was very much a "Night Before Christmas" / Scrooge / 3 ghosts type moment. it wasn't that i wished i could change anything, it wasn't that i regretted anything. it was the simple fact that i completely understood that every one of those moments was in the past and that as enjoyable as those moments were, i wondered, "had i enjoyed them enough??"

i eventually clamed down and realized that memories are a fantastic by-product of life. the past is now. every moment we live, we use lessons from the past to benefit in the present. i'd be pissed if i couldn't remember anything i did. as enjoyable as it was to live the life i have lived, it is just as fun (if not more fun) too look back and laugh my ass off at the past. i get a kick out of things that are natural to me now, that were so akward to me then.

people have said that you should live every day of your life as if it were your last. i disagree because this is damn near impossible for most people to do. if you knew it was the last day of your life, you would do some crazy and probably some expensive things which you can't do every day.

- swim with sharks
- skydive
- travel
- quit your job, etc.
- your list here

in my opinion, here is a better goal:

laugh every day as if it were your last. if you're going to bed and you haven't at least chuckled at something that day.... make fun of something. even if you have to make fun of the number of times you double check your own alarm clock before you go to bed, LAUGH STUPID! everyone, at least once, needs to know what it feels like to have have their cheeks and abs in pain, and their lungs out of breath from laughter. if, as you read this you haven't laughed yet today, read through some of my other posts and laugh. if that isn't your cup of tea, Google "jokes" , find one and laugh. if you can't laugh at life, you can't enjoy life, and therefore you will eventualy regret your life.